I'm on the verge of a new post with a new skinny chick and I think, based on my own failures, it has to be about exercise. I have had a membership at a gym for about four months and I've been there once! That is terrible. Yes, I do other exercise, but as is evident by my figure, it is sporadic at best. I like exercise and there's lots of time that I want to go, but I just don't. I'm wondering what the skinny chicks do. Yes, yes, they make it a part of their day. But what are the thoughts that get them to take action? I'm going to figure this out. I have this overwhelming sense of lethargy that is difficult to overcome. I think some of it has to do with mental fatigue -- taking on three children is definitely exhausting--but it's time that excuse went by the wayside. After all, Kate plus 8 is thin and she's got eight (although I think her method of venting the moment a little bit of anger hits her might help).
Eating is going better, but I haven't been great at writing everything down. Sometimes when I think I'm doing well, I slack. I've got to remember that when I do that, I am likely eating things that I am forgetting. That's how I got in this mess. So, I'm going to write down everything from pineapple to peanut butter.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
A few Skinny Chick/Hefty Chick comparisons.
This weekend, I was at a business class and they told us they would serve us lunch, which would be sandwiches. Woopsie! It was pizza. So I had a couple pieces. Nearby was a skinny woman who also doesn't eat any gluten and she had—no surprise here—packed her lunch. She had a beautiful spinach salad with beets, walnuts, feta cheese and a few other yummy surprises. She also had a nice piece of gluten-free banana bread and yogurt or something. I wish I had done that.
I remember when I was thin, I would NEVER have eaten at the concession stand at a hockey, football or any other game. At the hockey game the other night, I hadn't eaten, so I had a hot dog (better than Tim who had nachos, a brat, popcorn and a soda). What's up with that? Of course, it was a surprise to get the tickets and my resistance was slacking due to a Scott Ol' Fashioned (made by my friend Scott who is superb at it). What happened to just being hungry until something better came along?
So, since doing the story on Jill, I've been thinking more about what I'm going to eat during the week. I will stick to sandwiches and salads, since that's easy and yet provides lots of variety. I am going to make that walnut and beet salad because it looks so good! I'm also putting a few healthy snacks in bags tonight and keeping them in my fridge where they are easy to grab. Also water bottles filled in advance. I have those nifty metallic ones, but I think I need to put them out so they are easier to grab when the kids are around.
I remember when I was thin, I would NEVER have eaten at the concession stand at a hockey, football or any other game. At the hockey game the other night, I hadn't eaten, so I had a hot dog (better than Tim who had nachos, a brat, popcorn and a soda). What's up with that? Of course, it was a surprise to get the tickets and my resistance was slacking due to a Scott Ol' Fashioned (made by my friend Scott who is superb at it). What happened to just being hungry until something better came along?
So, since doing the story on Jill, I've been thinking more about what I'm going to eat during the week. I will stick to sandwiches and salads, since that's easy and yet provides lots of variety. I am going to make that walnut and beet salad because it looks so good! I'm also putting a few healthy snacks in bags tonight and keeping them in my fridge where they are easy to grab. Also water bottles filled in advance. I have those nifty metallic ones, but I think I need to put them out so they are easier to grab when the kids are around.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
My first skinny chick!
Below is my first "thin person" interview. I'm hoping to have several of these each week. In most cases, I will not use their real name. Their name doesn't matter, but their story does.
This week, I learned a lot from the woman I'm going to call Jill. She's a busy mom and career woman. She has a very quick mind, but focuses more on enjoying her life rather than nurturing her home, her friends, her family and herself. Having said that, she's a very caring person and is called "fun" by everyone who knows her. She's not afraid to hug a person or to help out. And, while she's not at all a selfish person, she definitely thinks about how her decisions and those of others will affect her and has a healthy sense of self. She's definitely not going to eat something fattening just to avoid hurting someone's feelings.
The thing about Jill is that she has a knockout figure. Very athletic looking and not at all frail, but her legs and waist are slender while still having plenty of curves. Although it would appear that she is "naturally thin," the truth as she tells it is that she works at it every day. Her life is a picture of constant balance and restraint. She's a planner, she says, and will think ahead about what she'll eat all week at work, when she has client meetings over lunch, what her plan is for exercise after work and what they are doing on the weekends. She'll pick up what she needs at the grocery store. It's not a laborious process, just a natural part of her thoughts.
When Jill wakes up, she's often not at all hungry and will eat a bowl of healthy cereal with skim milk simply because she must "for her health." Her primary focus for most of her daytime hours isn't food, but rather beverages such as coffee or tea with fat-free milk. She has purposefully chosen those beverages because they cut her appetite, she says.
Her food during the day is largely limited to a thin sandwich, a granola bar of some sort and a banana. "I can go for long periods without eating," she says. "And I don't have two meals a day." Which brings us to dinner. If Jill had lunch with a client at a restaurant, she won't deprive herself really. She'll eat a salad or a sandwich without fishing half of her ingredients (such as cheese or the bun) off the plate. She'll just quietly eat slowly until she's full and then stop. She won't have soup and a sandwich unless they offer 1/2 portion. There's no dessert, and she's not about to eat a plate of fries on the side.
When she does have that lunch out with a client, then for dinner she might have a yogurt or a small bowl of cereal, and nothing more.
She works out two to three times a week, and it's usually 30 minutes of cardio. Jill's not a superathlete who is busting herself in a full-out workout. It's just a consistent 30 minutes at a good rate. She might lift a few weights as well. There are times when she'll only go to the gym once a week, but rarely does she show up four times a week. She also is active in the sense that she likes to go out dancing with her husband or friends and is happy to do anything that's mildly active, but she's not a superathlete who will do several triathlons a year. She doesn't run, doesn't really hike and only occasionally rides a bike outdoors. Yet, if she can't get to the gym, she'll get a little troubled.
Jill attributes her thin figure to the fact that her behaviors are consistently more healthy than not healthy. "I have consistently worked out for 10 years," she said. She only eats one "meal" a day, the rest being small snacks. And she knows her weak spots and plans for them.
"The only time I have a craving is when I get home at 5;30. I want to eat right away. The problem is that I don't eat much during the day, so if I have something in the house for the kids, like Cheese Its, then I'll grab a handful and munch on them while I cook dinner for the kids." But, unlike fat people, Jill wouldn't think of eating the entire box. "I might grab two or three handfuls, which ends up being two or three portions. So I'm careful to eat just one handful."
She also likes a bit of sweet every day, but she chooses to add honey to some warm milk at night or to have a cup of sugar-free fat-free international coffee. Sometimes she'll have a bowl of ice cream on Sunday nights. In fact, weekends are the only time she really lets herself slack a bit. She limits alcohol to weekends as well as larger family meals, usually just dinner.
Other pitfalls just aren't her problem. Although her children live on chicken nuggets, macaroni and cheese, cheese pizza and the like, she doesn't (and wouldn't) ever eat that. And if anything is left on their plate, she wouldn't think of eating it. "I don't like to touch other people's food."
Jill said she wasn't always healthy. "When I look at photos of me in my 20s, I think I looked heavy. At that time, I didn't work out, I couldn't tell you how much fat or carbs was in anything. I smoked and drank all the time."
Her current lifestyle is predictable and easy to maintain, Jill says. And she prefers it that way. "I'm conscious of maintaining that balance."
This week, I learned a lot from the woman I'm going to call Jill. She's a busy mom and career woman. She has a very quick mind, but focuses more on enjoying her life rather than nurturing her home, her friends, her family and herself. Having said that, she's a very caring person and is called "fun" by everyone who knows her. She's not afraid to hug a person or to help out. And, while she's not at all a selfish person, she definitely thinks about how her decisions and those of others will affect her and has a healthy sense of self. She's definitely not going to eat something fattening just to avoid hurting someone's feelings.
The thing about Jill is that she has a knockout figure. Very athletic looking and not at all frail, but her legs and waist are slender while still having plenty of curves. Although it would appear that she is "naturally thin," the truth as she tells it is that she works at it every day. Her life is a picture of constant balance and restraint. She's a planner, she says, and will think ahead about what she'll eat all week at work, when she has client meetings over lunch, what her plan is for exercise after work and what they are doing on the weekends. She'll pick up what she needs at the grocery store. It's not a laborious process, just a natural part of her thoughts.
When Jill wakes up, she's often not at all hungry and will eat a bowl of healthy cereal with skim milk simply because she must "for her health." Her primary focus for most of her daytime hours isn't food, but rather beverages such as coffee or tea with fat-free milk. She has purposefully chosen those beverages because they cut her appetite, she says.
Her food during the day is largely limited to a thin sandwich, a granola bar of some sort and a banana. "I can go for long periods without eating," she says. "And I don't have two meals a day." Which brings us to dinner. If Jill had lunch with a client at a restaurant, she won't deprive herself really. She'll eat a salad or a sandwich without fishing half of her ingredients (such as cheese or the bun) off the plate. She'll just quietly eat slowly until she's full and then stop. She won't have soup and a sandwich unless they offer 1/2 portion. There's no dessert, and she's not about to eat a plate of fries on the side.
When she does have that lunch out with a client, then for dinner she might have a yogurt or a small bowl of cereal, and nothing more.
She works out two to three times a week, and it's usually 30 minutes of cardio. Jill's not a superathlete who is busting herself in a full-out workout. It's just a consistent 30 minutes at a good rate. She might lift a few weights as well. There are times when she'll only go to the gym once a week, but rarely does she show up four times a week. She also is active in the sense that she likes to go out dancing with her husband or friends and is happy to do anything that's mildly active, but she's not a superathlete who will do several triathlons a year. She doesn't run, doesn't really hike and only occasionally rides a bike outdoors. Yet, if she can't get to the gym, she'll get a little troubled.
Jill attributes her thin figure to the fact that her behaviors are consistently more healthy than not healthy. "I have consistently worked out for 10 years," she said. She only eats one "meal" a day, the rest being small snacks. And she knows her weak spots and plans for them.
"The only time I have a craving is when I get home at 5;30. I want to eat right away. The problem is that I don't eat much during the day, so if I have something in the house for the kids, like Cheese Its, then I'll grab a handful and munch on them while I cook dinner for the kids." But, unlike fat people, Jill wouldn't think of eating the entire box. "I might grab two or three handfuls, which ends up being two or three portions. So I'm careful to eat just one handful."
She also likes a bit of sweet every day, but she chooses to add honey to some warm milk at night or to have a cup of sugar-free fat-free international coffee. Sometimes she'll have a bowl of ice cream on Sunday nights. In fact, weekends are the only time she really lets herself slack a bit. She limits alcohol to weekends as well as larger family meals, usually just dinner.
Other pitfalls just aren't her problem. Although her children live on chicken nuggets, macaroni and cheese, cheese pizza and the like, she doesn't (and wouldn't) ever eat that. And if anything is left on their plate, she wouldn't think of eating it. "I don't like to touch other people's food."
Jill said she wasn't always healthy. "When I look at photos of me in my 20s, I think I looked heavy. At that time, I didn't work out, I couldn't tell you how much fat or carbs was in anything. I smoked and drank all the time."
Her current lifestyle is predictable and easy to maintain, Jill says. And she prefers it that way. "I'm conscious of maintaining that balance."
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
What Thin People Think
Yay! I'm down 2 pounds. I weighed in two days early and I'm already down 2 pounds. That's without really kicking in the exercise. It just shows what watching what you eat can do. I'm still not quite where I want to be, but a big part of that process has been started.
As some of you know, I'm not just a blog writer, but a writer in real life (as opposed to Internet life). I've recently decided to put my skills to work to help me get on top of this issue. I'm going to start interviewing Thin People because I think they live so much more differently when it comes to making choices than I do. Case in point: read Ann's comments from one entry ago. She counts calories every day, not just right after she had a baby and has been doing so since she's about 12. She also can't imagine eating in a supermarket as she shops or eating a full meal when she's already full. She just doesn't think like fat people.
I have a client who works with businesses and executives to create better communication and interpersonal skills, not to mention sales skills, and she has said to me repeatedly that it's not about what those people do that affects their behavior, it's about what they think. It's your thinking that creates your behavior. So, I'm going to mine the minds of Thin People and see what they think about and how they think about themselves and food.
If you know any thin people whom I should interview, let me know by email. I'll keep all names confidential, unless they prefer that I don't, and will post my results here. I'm also looking for previously fat people to interview who are now Thin People, to see what they noticed changing.
As some of you know, I'm not just a blog writer, but a writer in real life (as opposed to Internet life). I've recently decided to put my skills to work to help me get on top of this issue. I'm going to start interviewing Thin People because I think they live so much more differently when it comes to making choices than I do. Case in point: read Ann's comments from one entry ago. She counts calories every day, not just right after she had a baby and has been doing so since she's about 12. She also can't imagine eating in a supermarket as she shops or eating a full meal when she's already full. She just doesn't think like fat people.
I have a client who works with businesses and executives to create better communication and interpersonal skills, not to mention sales skills, and she has said to me repeatedly that it's not about what those people do that affects their behavior, it's about what they think. It's your thinking that creates your behavior. So, I'm going to mine the minds of Thin People and see what they think about and how they think about themselves and food.
If you know any thin people whom I should interview, let me know by email. I'll keep all names confidential, unless they prefer that I don't, and will post my results here. I'm also looking for previously fat people to interview who are now Thin People, to see what they noticed changing.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Making friends with Hunger
Well, I'm doing it. I'm getting hungry. It's been months since I've really been hungry. Oh, I've been hungry when I've walked into a grocery store, but I'm not counting that. That's hunger triggered by a situation. False hunger, if you will. I'm talking about whoa-mama-I-have-to-eat hunger. The kind that goes away if you ignore it for 20 minutes, only to return with a vengeance a half hour later. The kind of hunger that means you're burning calories. That's the kind of hunger I hadn't been speaking to directly for a looooong time.
So, yesterday's plan of letting Perfect Sue pick my food really worked! Especially now that I'm making friends with hunger. I ate very well: nitrate-free ham and whole grain bread sandwich, packed into baggies so that I can have one for a snack and the other for lunch. And two bags of pretzels, and two bags of carrots. Two bottles of water, one with a little juice added. It was fabulous! I had a little snack of spinach salad just before I left, but I was still hungry. During the day, as I drove to my client's home in Northern Illinois, I had to make a couple emergency calls to avoid my usual trick of stopping at a gas station to buy crappy food to alleviate my hunger. Karen didn't answer, but my Auntie did. She very halpfully reminded me that I REALLY NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. Hello? I have a blog about it, so I think I know. Just kidding. I know her heart's in the right place.
Anyway, I was slightly hungry pretty much all night. I didn't have popcorn, and when my other Sue friend, Svelte Sue, came to the movie we were all at with a ginormous KitKat bar, I still held off. I let Perfect Sue order (it was actually a collaboration). I got a salad with veggies and balsamic vinegar and a plate of steamed mussels. It was perfect, but I was still hungry. Then when Karen ordered fries and sat them right behind me, I did great at not ordering them. So proud.
Today was a little tougher. I did have a muffin at the store. It's weird, but I have been hungry all day, even after I eat. I think I'm in some kind of weird transition. I've been eating -- I had half a ham and cheese sandwich that Tim made for me, and a little something for breakfast, but no matter what I put in my mouth, I'm still staving. I'm ok right now, but I just keep drinking water. It's all good, though. I'm really proud of the progress. I'm weighing my foods, I'm letting myself get hungry, I'm really thinking about how I'm making food.
Tonight I made lasagna with venison, organic cottage cheese and fat free tomato sauce. I only put the mozzarella (part skim) cheese on the top layer instead of all three like I usually do. And you can actually see sauce beneath the cheese, a new one for me. Usually it's so thick! I can have one piece of this lasagna, which also has spinach, onions and mushrooms in it.
So, yesterday's plan of letting Perfect Sue pick my food really worked! Especially now that I'm making friends with hunger. I ate very well: nitrate-free ham and whole grain bread sandwich, packed into baggies so that I can have one for a snack and the other for lunch. And two bags of pretzels, and two bags of carrots. Two bottles of water, one with a little juice added. It was fabulous! I had a little snack of spinach salad just before I left, but I was still hungry. During the day, as I drove to my client's home in Northern Illinois, I had to make a couple emergency calls to avoid my usual trick of stopping at a gas station to buy crappy food to alleviate my hunger. Karen didn't answer, but my Auntie did. She very halpfully reminded me that I REALLY NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. Hello? I have a blog about it, so I think I know. Just kidding. I know her heart's in the right place.
Anyway, I was slightly hungry pretty much all night. I didn't have popcorn, and when my other Sue friend, Svelte Sue, came to the movie we were all at with a ginormous KitKat bar, I still held off. I let Perfect Sue order (it was actually a collaboration). I got a salad with veggies and balsamic vinegar and a plate of steamed mussels. It was perfect, but I was still hungry. Then when Karen ordered fries and sat them right behind me, I did great at not ordering them. So proud.
Today was a little tougher. I did have a muffin at the store. It's weird, but I have been hungry all day, even after I eat. I think I'm in some kind of weird transition. I've been eating -- I had half a ham and cheese sandwich that Tim made for me, and a little something for breakfast, but no matter what I put in my mouth, I'm still staving. I'm ok right now, but I just keep drinking water. It's all good, though. I'm really proud of the progress. I'm weighing my foods, I'm letting myself get hungry, I'm really thinking about how I'm making food.
Tonight I made lasagna with venison, organic cottage cheese and fat free tomato sauce. I only put the mozzarella (part skim) cheese on the top layer instead of all three like I usually do. And you can actually see sauce beneath the cheese, a new one for me. Usually it's so thick! I can have one piece of this lasagna, which also has spinach, onions and mushrooms in it.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Breakthrough?
I have just had the greatest idea when it comes to eating out. Let someone else order for you!
Last night I went to the Overture Center to hear Elizabeth Gilbert, the writer of "Eat, Pray, Love," a book that seriously saved me when I was going through The Horror three years ago (to the day this week). I went with my friends Doug and Samara, both ridiculously thin. Samara writes food articles for the local paper and so she always knows where to go and we let her pick a dinner location. She chose a Mexican restaurant with a name I can't remember on Main St. I decided I would get whatever she or Doug got, depending on which sounded better. There I was looking at all the fabulous entrees, including lamb, which I love, and they both ordered appetizers. OK. So I ordered the Mexican platter like Doug did (Samara ordered a large dish of melted cheese with toritllas, and I didn't think that would be good). It was perfect. One chicken flauta, one bean and cheese empanada, one small tostadda with shredded pork and that was it. Yum and I wasn't too full. I did have a couple margaritas as well. Lesson, I did great on the food, but should have just stuck to one margarita. I was a little drunk after the second.
Tonight, I'm going out with my girlfriends again, including Perfect Sue who never lets a fattening bite pass her lips, and if it should, she punishes herself on this decrepit old exercise bike. I rode once and thought it was broken, it's so hard to pedal. So I guess I'll let her order for me. My worry is that I'll feel deprived, which is a little trick I set up for myself to make sure I have a relapse and end up eating a whole pizza, which I don't even particularly like. Seriously, when I fall off the wagon, I usually end up pigging oiut on something I don't even like that much like chips or pizza. So, not only am I going to let Sue order for me, but I'm going to get it in my head that I really like whatever she orders. I will also try to eat it slowly. I'm going to email her now and warn her to pick something, but not too spartan like plain lettuce with lemon, steamed veggies and ice water. Perhaps splitting an relatively healthy entree and one glass of wine. And, since we're going to "It's Complicated" before dinner, I'll have her steer me away from the popcorn.
In other news, I made my own lunch the other day when I knew I'd be on the road over lunch. The bad news is that I started eating it as I drove out of the driveway at 9:30. The good news is that it was healthy. The bad news is that I was starving at noon and only had $2 and some change in my car as I had forgotten my wallet at home and I stopped to get 2 corndogs at the gas station. I don't even like corndogs that much. Why was I eating them? I did great at dinner having a big romaine lettuce salad, with sliced bok choy and radicchio, roasted root vegetables (turnips, parsnips, carrots of multiple colors and sweet potatoes), and roasted chicken. I'm back on board that problem now. I'm packing my lunch and putting it on the back seat so I can't reach it. Then I'm also packing a snack and some water, which will keep my occupied during my terrible time.
I'm also still struggling with the grocery shopping. So now I'm going to stop grocery shopping and just make what's in the refrigerator, and then when I shop I'm going to take a child with me since I never eat in a store when they are with me.
Man, I'm finding out I have a lot of bad habits to break.
Here's my mantra for today, and I'm going to tell myself this all day: It's easy to lose weight, I eat like I'm Ann or Sue all the time and I love to exercise.
Last night I went to the Overture Center to hear Elizabeth Gilbert, the writer of "Eat, Pray, Love," a book that seriously saved me when I was going through The Horror three years ago (to the day this week). I went with my friends Doug and Samara, both ridiculously thin. Samara writes food articles for the local paper and so she always knows where to go and we let her pick a dinner location. She chose a Mexican restaurant with a name I can't remember on Main St. I decided I would get whatever she or Doug got, depending on which sounded better. There I was looking at all the fabulous entrees, including lamb, which I love, and they both ordered appetizers. OK. So I ordered the Mexican platter like Doug did (Samara ordered a large dish of melted cheese with toritllas, and I didn't think that would be good). It was perfect. One chicken flauta, one bean and cheese empanada, one small tostadda with shredded pork and that was it. Yum and I wasn't too full. I did have a couple margaritas as well. Lesson, I did great on the food, but should have just stuck to one margarita. I was a little drunk after the second.
Tonight, I'm going out with my girlfriends again, including Perfect Sue who never lets a fattening bite pass her lips, and if it should, she punishes herself on this decrepit old exercise bike. I rode once and thought it was broken, it's so hard to pedal. So I guess I'll let her order for me. My worry is that I'll feel deprived, which is a little trick I set up for myself to make sure I have a relapse and end up eating a whole pizza, which I don't even particularly like. Seriously, when I fall off the wagon, I usually end up pigging oiut on something I don't even like that much like chips or pizza. So, not only am I going to let Sue order for me, but I'm going to get it in my head that I really like whatever she orders. I will also try to eat it slowly. I'm going to email her now and warn her to pick something, but not too spartan like plain lettuce with lemon, steamed veggies and ice water. Perhaps splitting an relatively healthy entree and one glass of wine. And, since we're going to "It's Complicated" before dinner, I'll have her steer me away from the popcorn.
In other news, I made my own lunch the other day when I knew I'd be on the road over lunch. The bad news is that I started eating it as I drove out of the driveway at 9:30. The good news is that it was healthy. The bad news is that I was starving at noon and only had $2 and some change in my car as I had forgotten my wallet at home and I stopped to get 2 corndogs at the gas station. I don't even like corndogs that much. Why was I eating them? I did great at dinner having a big romaine lettuce salad, with sliced bok choy and radicchio, roasted root vegetables (turnips, parsnips, carrots of multiple colors and sweet potatoes), and roasted chicken. I'm back on board that problem now. I'm packing my lunch and putting it on the back seat so I can't reach it. Then I'm also packing a snack and some water, which will keep my occupied during my terrible time.
I'm also still struggling with the grocery shopping. So now I'm going to stop grocery shopping and just make what's in the refrigerator, and then when I shop I'm going to take a child with me since I never eat in a store when they are with me.
Man, I'm finding out I have a lot of bad habits to break.
Here's my mantra for today, and I'm going to tell myself this all day: It's easy to lose weight, I eat like I'm Ann or Sue all the time and I love to exercise.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Day Two with the kids back. Kids 2, Lisa 0.
OK, I think I've figured out what the source of the problem is. The kids sap so much of my time that I'm eating on the run a lot. Here it is almost 10 p.m. and I have to sit and wonder what I ate today because I did not take the time to write it all down. Hmmmm.
OK. For breakfast I had two oranges and a banana. For lunch, I had a plain ham sandwich (2 oz. ham) and bread. Also some chips leftover from the kids (bad, I know). This afternoon I was again at the grocery store in the afternoon, on the fly to pick up some chicken for dinner and I did grab some chicken at the deli to eat. Oh my God. I could hear all of you shouting: Nooooo! Don't go there. Walk away. Walk away you fat b*tch. But I didn't care. The bad Lisa was in control.
I straightened out on the ride home. Tim and Izzy went to a movie for Daddy-daughter time. I told myself I had maxed out my points for the day without even getting near any vegetables, so I had some vegetable soup at dinner and just fixed Eden and Colin leftovers from the night before (make your own Taco salad) but put them in a tortilla. We went upstairs to get me out of the kitchen and watched Harry Potter. We had low-fat pudding for dessert.
The bad news: I went 10 points over my daily allowance. The good news: I am still well within my spare 32 points for the week. I have another 20.5 points to burn over the next week. The key to that working is that I have to be good and get my exercise in this week. Today was tough as I was super busy with work and kids and snow, so I didn't cram it in. Tim was gone tonight, so I couldn't go to the gym. I did get outside a bit and hiked around with the horses some. But not enough. I hate feeling out of breath when I climb the stairs.
I think to remotivate myself, I want to focus on how I WANT to feel, instead of just focusing on what I don't want. Here goes: I want to feel my stomach in the same place when I roll over. I want to feel excited to shop for clothes. I want to feel great in a pair of jeans. I want to wear a swimming suit and feel comfortable. I want to run and play with the kids and feel great while I'm doing it. I want to think about travel, books and writing rather than how fat I feel, what should I eat and why don't I feel good.
How about you guys?
OK. For breakfast I had two oranges and a banana. For lunch, I had a plain ham sandwich (2 oz. ham) and bread. Also some chips leftover from the kids (bad, I know). This afternoon I was again at the grocery store in the afternoon, on the fly to pick up some chicken for dinner and I did grab some chicken at the deli to eat. Oh my God. I could hear all of you shouting: Nooooo! Don't go there. Walk away. Walk away you fat b*tch. But I didn't care. The bad Lisa was in control.
I straightened out on the ride home. Tim and Izzy went to a movie for Daddy-daughter time. I told myself I had maxed out my points for the day without even getting near any vegetables, so I had some vegetable soup at dinner and just fixed Eden and Colin leftovers from the night before (make your own Taco salad) but put them in a tortilla. We went upstairs to get me out of the kitchen and watched Harry Potter. We had low-fat pudding for dessert.
The bad news: I went 10 points over my daily allowance. The good news: I am still well within my spare 32 points for the week. I have another 20.5 points to burn over the next week. The key to that working is that I have to be good and get my exercise in this week. Today was tough as I was super busy with work and kids and snow, so I didn't cram it in. Tim was gone tonight, so I couldn't go to the gym. I did get outside a bit and hiked around with the horses some. But not enough. I hate feeling out of breath when I climb the stairs.
I think to remotivate myself, I want to focus on how I WANT to feel, instead of just focusing on what I don't want. Here goes: I want to feel my stomach in the same place when I roll over. I want to feel excited to shop for clothes. I want to feel great in a pair of jeans. I want to wear a swimming suit and feel comfortable. I want to run and play with the kids and feel great while I'm doing it. I want to think about travel, books and writing rather than how fat I feel, what should I eat and why don't I feel good.
How about you guys?
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